Surprise!
A happy Monday!
This was a surprise which override all my fears of coming to office today. Without much of a hesitation I can frankly say that this was one of the most positive starts I had for a week in more than a month.
Looking for the same for the week!
So!
The meeting was not a review meeting as was expected but we were gathered to be told that we need to rename our team and report to the new fellow I interviewed for the position of the Team Lead for another team which was supposed to be formed or as was informed to me.
There, so now anything anyone from the team will be doing will come from the new fellow and he will assign resource for the activity and take feedbacks from the respective task owners.
Nothing wrong in that but what about the direct client interactions and process we were following since I joined here.
The only thing I can figure out from this is, all the hard work I did in past seven months is gone waste and I’ll be judged from this new fellow, whom I interviewed and know how much knowledge he has about the domain in which I expertise.
This is life!
Just catch the unexpected turns and sail in uncharted waters.
A review meeting for the quarter gone by starts in some time from now. By the unstated rule of corporations it is going to be on the same lines as all the meetings where the managers have to evaluate you and team and decide whether the increments should be given to you or not.
No price for guessing, considering the past few weeks of on goings, I am so not looking forward to it.
At a time when one needs a pat on the back or a hug, facing the inevitable criticism is not good. I just hope that it all unfolds in a easy manner.
Apart from office things, what is the deal when you see one of your BIG plans almost crashes on the ground and you need to look for another way to keep your morals uptight? Not good I suppose! I am advised to just duck and hide when the storm grows stronger. I guess that would be the best thing to do.
Looking for more from life and it is just playing with me. I know it happens all the time but as the old saying goes, the heart is stubborn like a child, he needs everything or nothing.
So in the end, to kill the spell of ‘anxiety’ from my last blog, here is the mantra:
All Izz Well!!!
I was thinking about my current lookout of things and realize that the kind of uneasiness I am feeling may be classified as anxiety. I am not sure as to how I got myself in this situation but it is not cool.
All sort of things happen these days and most of them are just boring and unpleasant. No, there are nothing personal attacks if that does matters, but the feeling that something is going to happen, makes me worried and keeps me tense.
We may say whatever will happen let it be, but the point is, nothing has happened yet, means good or bad whatever, but something must happen to end this spell.
You will say, kid, you need a break.
Okay, I need a break and all… but am not at anywhere near to the thing which is called a break.
The first thing which I noticed about my case is, I wake up several times in night and feel way to uncomfortable to fall asleep again. This is happening since last 2 months and I am fed up of this.
Dunno where to go now!
This frustrating feeling, which is not at all depression or sadness or even loneliness, but frustrating, making my evening just plain odd.
Odd, uncomfortable, uneasy and all those synonyms to the word conflict are buzzing in my head.
Why, just as the case goes with the darkest hour before dawn, is surrounding me at the moment. What is dark and what is dawn? I just do not know, but the sure thing is, something is cooking.
God knows it.
Something is coming this way.
Please do not expect that it is something which I know of. This is going to happen. It always does.
Okay, I am sounding a lot moronic then I actually am.
Monday!
As arguably the greatest thinker of our times once said, “I hate Mondays, I hate’em”- Garfield.
So it is just going by the snails’ pace as always leaving nothing to look forward to and just making the life more miserable here in Vadodara till the universe is busy designing the next roller coaster ride for yours truly.
Kid, stop this nonsense and get a life.
Watched Yes Man over the weekend and just loved the say Yes to all idea. I think I need to go on the same ride.
I will.
Just patchy at the moment.
Bye!
Prey for the world peace… (for me too)!
The life at Vadodara is going pretty dull these days. Nothing much exciting is happening and we are just trying to figure out from where the new bomb is going to attack.
Life never remains this dull for me and I am just waiting for the next rocking moment. This is bad. This is just plain bad. I always run into something way to unexpected after such lull, just like before the storm.
Now for more prominent things, I went to BITA, the Baroda Information Technology Association’s fair this 26th January with Lokendra Dongre. Lokendra is a long time friend and a Chemical Engineer currently working with Reliance Industries at Surat.
Tree things, which I found way to cool in the fair, are namely: 1. 3D Monitor, 2. Touch Screen white board, 3. Intel i7 Processors.
I will write in details about them in later posts as now not feeling in the mood.
Goddamnit! Why on earth at this place they do not sell some hard drinks. I am dying for some alcohol here! It’s been good 2 months since I had some good chilled can of beer or a glass of whiskey.
Am I doing right thing by writing about THAT here?
My Mother-in-law and her son are coming to Vadodara for a visit tonight and the weekend will go with them. It is going to be second visit from Tony since I am here.
Rest all is waiting….
Good God!
Fictional Period Drama: check, Bad reviews: check, bad acting: check, irritating supporting cast: check, bad music: check, incorrect wardrobe: check.
And then we get something to compete to our dear Mard Tangewala.
What Veer is about? It is a mix story bag of all epics like Troy, Rustom Sohrab, DDLJ, 300 and even Titanic.
Salman tried really hard to save the film but he could not.
The only positive about my experience about this film was that I wasn’t expecting anything from it. Yeah, I got all these words even before I reached the cinema hall.
I was ready. So it was not that bad. An average watch, if I say the max. In the post interval portions, I felt sweat around my neck and looked at people around me watching the movie.
I know when this happens. It means the movie is long and I have already lost interest in it.
BUT another bigger surprise I had on Sunday. I and the wife drive 50 KM to watch Avatar in 3D, after we have seen 2D already, and it was not at all I was expecting. Things were not hanging in the middle of the screen or coming directly to us, it was just plan layers behind the screen.
I think Chota Chetan, Chota Jadugar and Abra ka Dabra had more stuff flying out of the screen then this movie.
My vote goes to Avatar for the film not for the 3D; I was imagining many things before moving into theater but alas. Disappointing. Just plain waste of money.
If you have seen it in 2D, and not in 3D, not to worry. You did not miss anything.
Makar Sankranti is the only Indian festival which comes on a Roman calendar date i.e. 14th January each year. Traditionally, in my part of the country, it gets celebrated with married women gifting each other the symbols of marriage. While kids do enjoy the sweets made of sesame seeds and fly kites.
Now, in Gujrat, this is as wild as it gets. From kids to adults, from businessmen to the unemployed, everyone get down to one business only. That being flying kites and flying some more kites. This is an amazing experience for me as there are no people at office today, busy flying kites even after the festival.
I too got some kites but was unable to fly in the overloaded skies in the city. My kites never took off! Someone or the other cut it before it could actually reach its intended height. It was so funny to realize that people have bought kites in 100s for this very same reason. They cut 4 of my kites, I lost 2, 1 got stuck and I accidently tore 2 of them. Then last patience and returned inside.
I am not feeling like writing anymore. See ya later!
Feeling like hitting the sack right now. Grrrr… Mondays, I hate’em.
If having a rough day at office was not enough, practically anything I am doing or even involved as a part or reference is turning out blue.
Just too much to handle for me in a single Monday.
My weekend was sort of okay as watched Pyaar Impossible on Friday night, was at office for trainings and all (I was the trainer for the team, mind you!), Sunday went to this interview with Priyanka at some college and in the evening, shopping time for the wife! It was all about it.
Now! Just kill me or leave me. Cannot sustain any tortures anymore.
